Christmas Eve!!

Merry Christmas!!

Here we are yet again at another Chritmas eve! It's amazing how fast the time passes by. And the years pass in front of you and sometimes it feels like you're not moving with them...atleast that's how it feels for me now and then.

So, I suppose that most ppl are excited about tomorrow (Christmas day) and what kind of gifts their gonna get. Since most parts of the world celebrate Chritmas that day. But here in Sweden we don't. We celebrate it today, on Christmas eve and we open the presents in the evening. And if you have small chlidren the Santa comes knocking on your door and asks if there's any kind children in the house. And ofcourse you say yes! Cause otherwise you don't get any presents. and then the Santa sits down and hands out the gifts to everyone. And then he wishes everyone a Merry Chritmas and dissapears. And while the Santa is at the house, the daddy in the family just happens to be away and buying the newspaper! (You get the picture right?)

So that's how we celebrate Chritmas in my country and a few more countries here in Northern Europe. I just told you this cuz I thought it would be interesting to know.

This is why I'm even more excited about going to USA next year, to take part in their Chritmas celebrations, and maybe introduce a little Swedish touch to it =).

Personally I think I'd prefer our way. I mean, opening gifts in the morning or in the evening? I would choose the latter...but I guess it's all about tradition and what you're used to. I just think it's funny how different it can be. And ofcourse Sweden has to be odd...

I'm celebrating Chritmas with my mum at her place tonight. It's just gonna be the two of us. Usually we go to my cousins or her boyfriends parents. But things have happened this year which resulted in that we decided to spend it alone and just her and me. At first it made me kind of sad, cuz I'm the kind of person who likes to have a lot of ppl around me at Chritmas. Relatives and friends and their boyfriends etc. Kinda like the Christmas's on TV's Soap Operas =) But I guess I'm gonna have to let it go and enjoy the quite and peaceful Christmas of two ppl.

So what more is new? Not much...well there is this guy...I'm not gonna reveal his name...but there's someone. I guess these coming days during my holiday break are gonna determend my love destiny...

I guess this is it for now!

So I wanna wish you all a Merry Chritmas and a Happy New Year!! And please, don't make promises you can't keep...it'll only cause you anxiety...

Hugs and Kisses

Frieda*

(Sofie is gonna start writing on this blog very soon. So from now on it's gonna be our blog and not just mine...that was the whole idea from the beginning...)

I've lost my cellphone...

Well yeah, it's true! I was out with a friend last night and I lost my cell phone! I don't know if someone stole it from me at the club or if I accidently missplaced it somewhere and forgot it or what I did. However, when me Kathy and her boyfriend was sitting at Burger King eating some "drunk-food" =) I discovered that I didn't have my phone on me. And Kathy called it but it was turned off, and I had full battery power during the evening. Oh, it's so bad to lose your phone! I'm so disabled without it! Isn't it amazing how this small little thing has managed to create such a huge inpact on our lives? It's like your entire world falls apart if u lose it. How did we get along when it didn't exsisted? That figures...

Anyways, I just wanted to tell u this so u'd feel a bit sorry for me. =( Tomorrow I'm gonna party again. (a lot of partying this week, but hey you're just young once in your life , so why not live while you have the chance?) It's the yearly staff christmas party at a place called "Trädgår'n" (The garden) It's gonna be fun! Sofie is unfortunatley not gonna tag along...that's bad. I'll miss my Lauren* But Jenny and maybe Frida is gonna come. And that's gonna be so fab as Frida would say...=)

My mum's been here tonight and we've been watching TV, eating shrimps and drank a glas of whine. That was nice and cosy. She's spending the night here and right now she's snoring! =) And my neighbours are having a party...but I'm not that bottered, I think that you should be allowed to have a party sometimes. And I would never be one of those ppl who knocked on their door and told them to turn down the volume or stop partying...never! U need to have a party sometime, right?

My eyes are starting to fail me right now so before I start writing words and sentences that's not making any sense I'd better stop.

I'll give u a full update on Monday "morning" on how the party was...and how Jenny and I were the sassiest girls at the entire place...=)

Good night and sweet dreams, from me to you...

Frieda*

And todays picture is:

Me and Kathy (from a party earlier this year)

Tuesday December 16th...School's almost over

Hey folks!

It's just me again. I had my exam today, it was much easier then I expected it to be! That made me happy. Another rock off my chest. And I found out that I had passed the economy exam we had last week! Thank god. I already have one that I need to re-take next semester. And I'm not looking forward to that...

I met with Linda in town today. It was nice. We haven't seen eachother for a while. So it was a lot of cathing up since last time.

I don't understand why I'm so tired all the time? I sleep and I eat and I work out. Well I've had a cold since a week back so I haven't been able to work out. But I will tomorrow or on thursday. I need to keep my body in shape =)

Before when I was on the bus on my way home I had so much that I wanted to share with you and write about here, but now when I'm actually sitting here my mind's totally blank...strange.
Maybe it'll come to me later, if it does I'll just publish another post. It's a simple as that.

I'm listening to Westlife right now. I created a palylist called boybands =) and Westlife pretty much takes the lead, a few Backstreet songs and some Boyzone. Two or three Blue and on by N'Sync. But Westlife's number 1! You might think that it's geeky for a 24 year old girl to like Westlife. But I don't. I like their music, the lyrics, songs and their looks =) So I stand by my boyband fanatism...

This post doesn't seem to be so structured, but hey I'm not a structured kinda person. But I feel like I talk about to many different things in one post.

I bought a new pair of boots today! They were on sale, and we love sale, don't we =) I'll publice a picture of them later...got to go now...

Hugs*

Frieda*

Monday again...

Hi!

Well well here we are again at yet another monday.

The fears from yesterday has become smaller. But they're still there. But hopefully I'll win over them, just like everything else and happiness and love wins in the end...what a cliché ha?

Anyways, I'm soon off to work. I don't feel like working today. I'm tired and I really need to study for the exam tomorrow. It's the last one this semester, then on thursday we have the last day in school and then it's holiday break until january 7th. A whole 19 days! Yey! But I think I might get kinda restless during that time, since I don't have any part time job after the 21st dec. But hopefully my friends and all of our crazy things will keep me occupied enough so that I won't get bored and restless.

I hope my little Sandy has a great time in Lanzarote, she and her boyfriend is over there now just chilin and enjoying the sun! I'm not jealous, no, not at all =)

But hopefully I'll get the oppertunity to go away for a week to some warm place after New Year's. That would be amazing and really needed.

Got to go folks, have to fix myself a bit before the bus takes me to work...be with me! And maybe I'll have a good time at work...

Frieda*

So, todays picture is Me My stepsister Linda and our finnish friend Sonja when we were in Monte Carlo this summer and got the chance to meet Drake Hogysten and Deidre Hall (Marlena and John) from the soap opera Days of our lives...this picture always puts a smile on my face...

Sonja, Deidre, Linda, Drake and Me

Fears and dissapointments...Just a part of life?

I´m afraid...

I'm afraid of a lot of things. Now I'm taking about my dreams and hopes when it comes to me going to L.A with Sofie next year.

The first thing that I'm afraid of is that Sofie is gonna bail and stay here in Sweden. But really, I wouldn't blame her even thought I'd be really sad and dissapointed. She recently got her first very own apartment and she has a full time job. And that's not something You'd give up just like that! And who am I to demand or expect her to, just to follow me to L.A to fullfill my crazy acting dreams!? But I hope that she still wants to go, cause I know that it'd be soooo great and that we'd have such an amazing time over there!!

The second thing I'm afraid of is that I'll be so dissapointed and let down. Why, because I know that I might not make it and I might not get to where I want to be. Even if my heart thinks so. And the burning and desire is so strong. And what if L.A isn't as great and wonderful as I remember it to be? Maybe being a "citizen" and part of the normal daily L.A life is a lot different from just being there as a tourist. And maybe, just maybe I won't find all the happiness and completition that I now feel is waiting for me over there...

I have had these fears growing in the back of my head from the day I decided that I would definatley go next fall. But the expectations and excitements and positive thoughts has always clustered those fears. But just recently they floated up to the surface and hit me like a hard rock.
Maybe reality has gotten the best of me and made me realize that I really need to think this decision throught. Cause I don't wanne end up the way I did when I went there the first time a few years ago...

And I'm so afraid that that's exactly what might happen if I go there without Sofie and all alone. But still, I'm older and more independet now then 5 years ago. So a part of me think that I can go there alone. But another part, doesn't. Damn! This is so hard...I need to do this. For me! I don't wanna look back and regret that I didn't take the chance when I had it!

Well, maybe it's just the Christmas ghost haunting me...or this time of year. I tend to lure out the dark sides of myself at christmas, and with that the negative and realistic part. Well, the fact that I feel a little alone right now might be a factor...

Anyways...I'm tired and I have a presentation tomorrow morning, so I think I should go to bed now.

See you soon...

Frieda*

Todays picture: My favorite TV show and favorite TV couple...

Booth and Brennan

BONES

(Emily Deschanel / David Boreanaz)

Well Hi there! I start this post by adding a picture of me and Sofie and our friends when we were out this weekend celebrating Sofies birthday. We had a really great time, even if she did get a little to drunk...but that's for her to tell!

I taped her, maybe, just maybe I'll upload it here...

Anyways, what's new in my life? Hmm, not much. Other then that it's muxh work in school. I have yet another exam coming up this week and two projects and then classes all week...well I guess that's just life...

Usually I'm really looking forward to Christmas, but this year I don't. Cause a lot it going on with my mum and her boyfriend, and I don't know how we're gonna spend Christmas. Anyways, next year, hopefully, I'll get to spend it in L.A with some cute guy that I've met there...(a girl can always dream, can't she)

Just wanted to say hi and I hope that ppl read this blog...I know it's kinda new and maybe not that interesting yet...but hey give me a chance...I can be funny! I promise...

Love;

Frieda

Just another Monday...

Hi!

I hope u had a good weekend, I did.

On Friday I was at a classmates house, me and three other classmates were there. It was really nice and cosy. We ate dinner, watch Idol and played board games. And just hung out.
Then on Saturday I was at my friends 30's party. And my ex was there. I thought it was gonna be all bad, embarassing and just awkward. But actually, we had a really great time. We talk about nothing and everything, and it felt really good. I think we've reached that point where we can finally put all negative stuff behind us, be civil to eachother and just be friends. Something that we couldn't do before. And that's great, I just think that it should have happend a little sooner then after 1 year and 8 months. But better late then never, right?

Well, I'm in quite a hurry now. I'm going to my acting class in about 10 minutes so I think I'll have to go soon. But I'll write more tonight when I get back.

I have an exam on thursday which I really needs to study for, but I just don't feel either focused or motivated...I'll do it tomorrow...

Whops, got to go!!

See ya later...

*The song for the day is: Gotta be somebody by Nickelback... I love that song, his voice and the lyrics...*

Frieda

A new beginning...

Well, maybe not yet. But hopefully next year.

In september next fall me and my good friend Sofie are gonna go to L.A and I'm gonna take acting classes and she's gonna study to become a make up artist. Atleast that's what we've talked about and what we want to do. But I guess time has to decide...

I'm 24 years old and I'm born in Gotheburg, Sweden. And this is where I've lived ever since then. But I'm tired of the life here, I want action and excitement. And my biggest dream, ever since I was 8 has been to become an actress. I know that it's a hard business and that not many ppl actually suceeds, especially not foreigners who go to Hollywood just to try their luck. But you will definatley not suceed if you're afraid of failing, right? I've been to L.A twice and i fell in love with the city emmidiatley, and ever since I left the last time, my heart has been telling me to go back, but my mind sometimes gets the best of me by saying that it's more secure here, and that I have everything here and vice versa. But I've always been told to listen to my heart, and that's what I'm gonna do from now on!

This blog is for everyone to read, I'm gonna documnet my life, my expectations and the preperations until I go to L.A. And we'll see what happens along the way. And that's the reason why I chose to write in English, so that everyone can read this. I mean, swedish is not a language that's well known in the world. Even if our country might be...

So next time I'll tell u a little more about myself and my life so far. And I'll also give you some info about my country, Sweden. If anyone's interested.

So until then, take care...=)

Love,
Frieda